I haven't been online for a long time....and haven't stayed online for so long...I haven't stayed awake for such a long time too...Sometimes I think life is so wonderful but sometimes I feel like crying.I guess that's me. My aunt always tell me I OVER-cry...What a word.I can start crying in front of her when I can't get my point across...I'm trying hard to control that and be even stronger. OMG! People always think I m independent which is true.But do u people know the more independent people are, the weaker they are? At times I wish to just lean on a guy and be a vulnerable girl.Hahaha...bet u people never knew that about me? Oh well....

I realise I have been waivering quite a lot since I came to poly.I aint sure why is that so. Initially I thought I can look upon my peers but I really don't bother to respect them at all, because of their attitude and character. I am not decisive when it comes to certain things.It is so not me...I'm gonna be an adult soon yet I feel so much like a teenager...going through a roller coaster ride. Not much time is left, hope to establish a majority of my personality before I turn 21 and stick with it.For eg. Speaking loudly among friends. There are more people who speaks louder that I am. Now that I am going to be a teacher, I wished I haevn't changed that part of me cos' I need that loud voice...I'm gonna look for traits which are hidden in me...I feel that I don't have to please everyone and just be myself. I don't anyone any explanation as long as I am answerable to myself....Isn't that true? A part 2 to examine my character will be up by next wed.Meanwhile I am going to work on an assignment.

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Friday, December 10, 2004

I haven't been online for a long time....and haven't stayed online for so long...I haven't stayed awake for such a long time too...Sometimes I think life is so wonderful but sometimes I feel like crying.I guess that's me. My aunt always tell me I OVER-cry...What a word.I can start crying in front of her when I can't get my point across...I'm trying hard to control that and be even stronger. OMG! People always think I m independent which is true.But do u people know the more independent people are, the weaker they are? At times I wish to just lean on a guy and be a vulnerable girl.Hahaha...bet u people never knew that about me? Oh well....

I realise I have been waivering quite a lot since I came to poly.I aint sure why is that so. Initially I thought I can look upon my peers but I really don't bother to respect them at all, because of their attitude and character. I am not decisive when it comes to certain things.It is so not me...I'm gonna be an adult soon yet I feel so much like a teenager...going through a roller coaster ride. Not much time is left, hope to establish a majority of my personality before I turn 21 and stick with it.For eg. Speaking loudly among friends. There are more people who speaks louder that I am. Now that I am going to be a teacher, I wished I haevn't changed that part of me cos' I need that loud voice...I'm gonna look for traits which are hidden in me...I feel that I don't have to please everyone and just be myself. I don't anyone any explanation as long as I am answerable to myself....Isn't that true? A part 2 to examine my character will be up by next wed.Meanwhile I am going to work on an assignment.

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